Confession time, starting up a Farmers Market having a food truck, trying to also keep some corporate dollars flowing in is exhausting.
Really exhausting, I have neglected my own families meals, had no time to clean the house walk the dog or take time to visit friends and family for what seems like a very long time. I miss my hairdresser and live in pony tails.
Working with my uber boyfriend, I spend too much time sweating the stuff that I should let roll off my back, and not enough time enjoying the fact that for the last year we have been busy trying to build a company, and have been able to spend loads of time together, and that my honey is very supportive and cute and I am lucky.
Confession - Blends - a divorced mother of two dating a divorced father of two, we have not been able to find a successful blend pattern that works for both unique families, so we don't. Does that make me a bad step mom, yes probably, do I stress about that? yes a little - can I change it - no - so I can live with that. Accept the things you cannot change, and allow the parents to parent without interference. Kids will be grown soon enough.
On the topic of blends, coffee - I admit it I do not often buy organic coffee and sometimes I feel shame for that.
So after months of food trucks, farmers markets and small town politics. I sit on a plane en route to a corporate event, trying hard to get my head around the person that I was when I had my head stuffed in a flat screen every day, actually looking forward to putting on my black suit and sensible shoes and reconnecting with the Borg.
What I thought I was leaving when we started this adventure, the politics of corporate life, time constraints, personalities, I have found exist in everything just in different forms. I thought being my own boss would somehow liberate me from the chains of middle management and corporate stress. Instead I found that small town Politics are way more exhausting, and the demands of a small business exceed those of corporate life, and in the beginning with little payback, outside of the satisfaction of doing yourself, making your own decisions, and being responsible for your own success or failure. Which I love.
So for the next week I am back at corporate and Honey is in charge of the food truck and Farmers Market, and for that I am thankful.
I am also thankful that the conference this week is in Miami beach. and this plane is near empty and I have three seats to myself.